Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Pride

June is Pride month.  And it only took me until mid-June to realize this.

I suppose there were some signs... NewFest, Pride parade, rainbow flags everywhere, references to Stonewall, how every gay publication reminded me that June was Pride month.

Being out for nearly six months, what is pride to me?  The truth is, I have no idea.

I listen to the stories from friends and read them in magazines and I can't fully relate.  Must I be a victim of a hate crime or discrimination then arise from it stronger to fully appreciate being proud?  Can I be proud only in the face of opposition?

I know one thing for sure: I'm proud of myself for coming out.  Does that mean I'm proud of being gay?  Or that I had the courage to be open and honest about myself?  Is that one in the same?

Hopefully things will become clear when I attend the New York City Pride parade.. or more blurred because of the alcohol.  Either or.

10 comments:

GrooveTheory said...

You know it's been 7 years since the last time I did NYC Pride. I think it's time to show these queens that my flame is much higher and brighter now!

Michael said...

You know, I think what Pride means really changes over time. When I first came out, it was an excuse for a party. This year I noticed something else, a feeling of comfort that even I, a gayborhood-living, out-at-work-and-to-my-family, call-me-a-fag-and-I'll-break-your-face gay guy, don't have most of the time.

I guess for me the importance of pride is more that even though I *haven't* been a hate crime victim, and even though I really don't worry about becoming one, there's something nice about standing in a crowd of 'my people.'

The key words in this comment are "for me." We all take our own meaning from things.

Matt said...

We all get together and start killing heteros. No one told you?

epicurist said...

I too agree with michael. I came out 17 years ago, and my first Pride was 11 years ago. A lot has changed, and it has had a lot of meanings for me. Don't let anyone tell you what it is. you will know when you are there experiencing a moment where nearly everyone there is tolerant, accepting and having a damned good time.

As you celebrate in NYC, we will be doing teh same here in Toronto. Apparently, NYC, Toronto & L.A have the largest Parade attendance in North america. Something to think about.

Jon said...

Pride is kind if irritating. I mean, I'm all for proud of being gay, but the parade is just boring. And given what half of the people who attend are wearing, it should be called the Gay Shame Parade. Amen

Brechi said...

it's different for everyone. just have fun with your friends if you end up doing any of the parties. they can be a hoot.

Ethan said...

Have fun! and Happy belated Birthday!!

Hot Toddy said...

Sigh. Your first PRIDE Parade. I'll bet your eyes fill with tears at least once. Me, I cry from the moment the parade begins, which, strangely, is usually kicked off by the Dykes on Bikes. Try explaining to your friends why you are crying at Dykes on Bikes. Have fun, Jase! Would love to be there watching with you!

palochi said...

Get a copy of Heather Small's "Proud" (probably available at iTunes as part of the "Queer As Folk" soundtrack). Put it on your iPod. Listen.

Trust me. It'll hit you. It's one of those songs that the music itself will inspire you.

Dantallion said...

Actually, I think you're a brilliant example of pride at it's best - The way you've come out these past 6 month, handled things, understood things. This is what pride was designed to create.