I did it again last Sunday. I don't know why I did it. It was probably because I've done it so many times before. I guess old habits die hard.
While I was getting to know J., another volunteer at the AIDS Walk, I pretended to be straight. That's right, I pretended to be straight. Those old rules echoed through my mind: don't be overly flamboyant, don't gesticulate too much, don't use the word 'fabulous'; and I followed them.
And the funny part? My sexuality was never even brought into question during our conversations!
Sometimes, when I meet new people, my behavior automatically reverts back to how I was when I was still in the closet. Looking back to last Sunday, I just feel foolish; especially taking into account where I was at the time: an AIDS Walk! Not what I'd call a homophobic environment.
Eh.. change takes time, right?